Mozart learns to Trance

To the pure classic lovers, pls dun get mad for this remix. Haha:p

复杂的心情

南风吹！一岁了！:)

感叹时间的流逝，但却无能为力。


不过首先还是先恭贺我吧！
《那些闯荡过的日子》一岁了！
记得去年-8月8号2008年建立起来的。熟悉了吧？是奥运会开幕那天啦！


本人从前就有在白纸上写写感想-我都称它们为心情写，因为多数时候，那些都会是我内心世界里，别人看不到的东西。从前我都写那些不开心的事情，想说，既然没有人能陪我从心底分享感觉，那么我就写给自己看，或许多年以后，我会对自己当时有新的看法。


说真的，这些都是真的。因为部份心情写我都有存起来，在重读时，会有种怀念的感觉。年轻，就是年轻。对于好多事情，我好像都看到了很多角度。以前没注意到的，为什么现在才看到？


记得，17岁那年，也就是form5的时候，我身边左右坐着两位美女（享受艳福）:p。其实小学就认识了，不过就没什么参与他们，因为我本身是很内向的人。那么久了，他们俩改变了我对一些事态的看法。从前我好像是活动的天气报告，因为他们总是能从我脸上猜到我当时的心情。不开心时候，我会不经意的摆出臭脸，我会避开人群，我会孤僻我自己。所以才有心情写。那么这两个冬瓜呢，有一次看到了我那个心情写，所以才更了解我想什么，从而鼓励我多写些，还要我放在书包里，而他们会在我没发现的时候“偷偷”拿出来看。这么一来我便不会尴尬了。哈哈！有点无厘头。


其实第一篇写的心情写，我还记得是写什么。
16岁那年我有个很喜欢的女孩子。关系很暧昧，双方都曾经表白过，但执著于学业，没有发展成男女朋友关系。因为暧昧时很多事情都有个限制。我不敢直接告诉她，别的男生跟她很要好我会吃醋。然而这种关系拖拖拉拉直到17岁年头开学，我什么都没交待，直接就减少和她来往。因为我怕。第一个心情写是为她而写，记得约她到图书馆，而她没来，结果就一个人在图书馆，静静的就写下了寂寞的感觉。她是第一个让我体会到真的心如刀割的感觉。一直以来我还以为只是一个成语，原来那是最贴切的形容词。


只是到了最后，我很后悔没有把话说清楚，我以为只有我会痛，但我错了。
我对她好，我们当作什么事情都没发生过，但，就是过去了。我很庆幸是，我们依然是好朋友，虽然几年没见，但肯定见面时不会尴尬了。哈哈！


后来，离开了家园。始终我们都会为了更美好的前程而到异乡奔跑。
也因为没能让那两个好朋友“偷偷”看我的心情写，所以我有了部落格，但不是这个，哈哈！


你知道人会随着岁月而改变吗？我不只说外表，而是内心的世界。只可惜三年前我却没能找到自己，我还是那么的无知，那么的幼稚，一直活在自己的世界，一直以我为中心点。我以为这样，别人就伤害不了我，同时我不管别人时，也伤害不了别人。
但是同样的事情又在上演。我应该是那种因为喜欢一个人而变得执著的人；为了她好，我愿意牺牲点。我以为只要付出，就能守得住人。但因为我始终还是以我为中心点，我开始怀疑我的付出是不值得的。最后，我选择放弃感觉，我抛弃了自己的心。然而到最后才发现，我很幼稚。


因为会被刀割的心不只是一个，会流血的人不会只是我。……对不起
而付出，那是一种心甘情愿的事情，没能说没有回报所以不服。更何况我应该是那个让你有依靠的人，而不是伤害你的人。从来也没想这样的结局。


最深刻的爱情绕过了我，仿佛是夜里没有灯塔指路的一艘船，仿佛是沙漠里的一场雨。没能开花结果。我真的以为就这样失去了，还好我们还能有联系。


你知道我开始学会看开了吗？
知道为什么我会认为我会随着风荡漾吗？因为风会吹到很多地方，而我的人生好像是那阵风，只能随着它飘，所有事情会顺其自然的来，然后顺其自然的离开。


那这一个部落格，我是写给自己看，也是给关心我的朋友们。
这也是我和你的联系。至少我认为你会用心读时，我也会很用心写。:)

比较起以前写的东西，感觉我变了。哈哈！希望是好的。

我只是偶尔会很没有方向。
如果你发现我的执著，那是我内心里的痛。

小小蛋糕，就做一周年纪念蛋糕了！

没办法，一年一度，这篇长文就当作是总结吧:)

Kampar CS (Engineers or labors?)

3 cars for our number of ppl.

We were working for HABITAT. Mr Fabio (if not mistaken) wanted us to wear the helmet all the time for safety purpose.











Yellow for the normal rank builders, while white for a higher rank ppl, usually architect or engineers.

Mr Fabio was a carpenter until he left his hometown to get involved in HABITAT.
He started to work here just few months ago.

These are concrete blocks. It's hollow as they need reduce the weight that will impose on soil. The soil is quite soft FYI, and it's besides a river. So the bearing capacity of the soil might not be that good with water in the soil.













Oh ya. Before I get started, let me tell you what project we were doing.
We were assigned 2 tasks,

1. Build a retaining wall
2. Build a house (b4 that already 50% done)
   

Outside, not far from the parked car, is the site for the retaining wall.
RETAINING WALL - is a wall that used to hold the sand from moving.

This was retaining wall previously done by other group, which as u can see,
not good enough. Showing signs of failure.

A short walk from the retaining wall site is the house construction site.

THIS IS THE HOUSE!
*Noticed that the wall were not even on the same level with the window frame.

So we started off by wearing helmet and gloves. Everyone looked excited.

6 persons helping with the house, while the rest went for the retaining wall.
I was on the house site.
SO following pictures I not so sure what's happening. hehe:p

Seng Chee was like =.="

"what are they doing ah?!"

AND THE BEST PHOTO TODAY!
It's no fake. The expression is real! heheh:p
He tersangkut with the cage i think.

The retaining wall is actually made of a steel cage, buried to an extent of ground, with stones as the weightier. Means that to build a retaining wall, a steel cage filled with stones must be buried to the wanted site. They started by shaping the steel cage 1st, then digging the ground, and finally place the steel cage to the ground before filling it with stones.

They were crouching at the hole they dug, which this act was seen by Mr. Fabio accidentally when he was back from house construction site to guide them. Must be very very embarrassing:p

This is the path way to the house construction site. Nice rite?
It's a bridge. Down there is a clear river.
You can see "african see"(fei zhau yu)

That's me, filling the hollow blocks with mortar.

The roof trusses.

We had a break on 12++.
Went for the famous Curry chicken bread,
which the bread contained curry chicken inside.
Yes, it's inside, you can only see the chicken after u cut the bread off.
Special huh?

To be cont.
2am d lo..sleep time.haha:p